A Tale of the Not-So Vacation

This week was my not-so spring break. Why not so? Because I had the pleasure of taking Driver's Ed all week. 9:00-3:30 every day Monday through Friday. God, it was horrible. And my best friend relied on me for rides, so most days I was up before seven. Loved spending the week with my friend...but I missed my sleep.

The class was just so monotonous. It was all common sense, and each mini-lesson pretty much repeated what the previous lesson said, just using different words. It was literally the slowest week of my life. It was worse than school, sitting in a stuffy room for six hours straight. We got a couple ten minute breaks here and there, and a half hour lunch. Longest week of my life.

This is how I passed the time:

Day 2: The Doodle Edition

Day 3: Extensive Outline for my WIP

Day 4: The Song Edition

And even somehow with all this doodling and spending time on my iPod Touch (which I mercifully got WiFi on!) I still managed to pass the final test with a 93 woohoo!

I'm just glad it's over. Now to finish all my vacation homework I've been neglecting. Because it's right back to school tomorrow. Wah. :\



One Tree Hill

If any of you follow my tumblr, you probably noticed my One Tree Hill explosion (yeah, sorry about that). 

I started watching One Tree Hill during my February Vacation, and then continued to blow through all nine seasons of it, finishing it off last week. I'm so incredibly sad that this show ended just as I found it. It seems like that always happens to me. 

The whole reason I started watching that show was because I'd just finished Gossip Girl, and needed something new to watch while doing my homework. I thought, hey, Chad Michael Murray is in this. How bad can it be? And then I started watching it... and couldn't stop. It literally turned into an obsession.

It’s just One Tree Hill is so different than any other show I’ve watched. It felt so real. Obviously there was some over-the-top “only on TV” kind of situations, but overall it was such an honest show about growing up that has affected me way too much. It was just so well written, the monologues contain some of my favorite quotes of all time. The characters were all so complex and well developed. You find something to love in everyone. You end up loving people you didn’t like before, and finding empathy for those you never would’ve thought deserved it. One Tree Hill encompasses life, bringing out both the best—and worst—of humanity.

It’s crazy to think how involved in this fictional world I’ve gotten. I’ve laughed with these characters, I’ve cried for these characters, I felt as though I was a part of their own little world of Tree Hill. I could draw a piece of myself from each character, and I think that’s why the show was so successful, because of its ability to relate on a personal level. I connected with Lucas over writing (and um, he’s Chad Michael Murray…), Haley over her books/nerdiest, Peyton’s love of classic rock, Brooke’s insecurities despite the facade she puts on, and honestly watching Nathan’s development was one of the greatest things I’ve ever seen. 

I already know that I’m going to be re-watching my favorite episodes. There’s so much depth to this show, and I really just cannot believe it’s over. I’m a new fan—probably one of the younger ones (I was seven when the show started) but I know that it’s a show that will be with me for many years to come. And gosh, all the great music I’ve gotten from it makes it worth it right there.

My God though, the writing in this show is un-freaking-believable. Some of my favorite quotes:

"Sometimes when you're young you think nothing can hurt you. It's like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you and you have big plans. Big plans. To find your perfect match, the one who completes you. But as you get older you realize it's not always that easy. It's not until the end of your life that you realize how the plans you made were simply plans. Because at the end when you're looking back instead of forward you want to believe you made the most of what life gave you. You want to believe you're leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered."

"You ever look at a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples lives have we been in? Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true, or were we there when their dream died? Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise? Just think, you could be a big part of someone else's life, and not even know it."

“Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us? Did it steal into our lives, or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us? That we now send our children into the world like we send young men to war… Hoping for their safe return… But knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows, swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?”

“At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. And sometimes… all you need is one.”

“Every song has a CODA, a final movement. Whether it fades out or crashes away. Every song ends. Is that any reason not to enjoy the music? The truth is, there is nothing to be afraid of. It’s just life.”

"Life’s funny sometimes; can push pretty hard like when you fall in love with someone but they forget to love you back, like when your best friend and your boyfriend leave you alone, like when you pull the trigger or light the flame and you can’t take it back. Like I said, in sports they call this ‘stepping up’. In life, I call it ‘pushing back. You know it’s been said that we just don’t recognize the significant moments of our lives while they’re happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it’s usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that you’ve realized how wrong you’ve been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it. God, I love this game. You ever heard the expression ‘The best things in life are free.’ Well that expression is true.’ Every once in a while, people step up they rise above themselves sometimes they surprise you and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard but if you look close enough, you can find hope in the words of children, in the bars of the song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you’re lucky, if you’re the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back. "

“Take a look at yourself in the mirror, who do you see looking back? Is it the person you wanna be? Or is there someone else you were meant to be? The person you should have been, but fell short of. Is someone telling you you can’t, or you won’t? Because you can. Believe that love is out there. Believe that dreams come true every day, because they do. Sometimes happiness doesn’t come from money, or fame, or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family, and from the quiet nobility of leading a good life. Believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do. So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy, because you deserve to be. Believe that. And believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do.”

“Most of our lives are a series of images, they pass us by like towns on a highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens and we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever. ”

"It’s the oldest story in the world. One day you’re seventeen and planning for someday. And then quietly and without you ever really noticing, someday is today. And that someday is yesterday. And this is your life. We spend so much time wanting, pursuing, wishing - but ambition is good, chasing things with integrity is good, dreaming. If you had a friend you knew you’d never see again, what would you say? If you could do one last thing for someone you love, what would it be? Say it, do it. Don’t wait. Nothing lasts forever. Make a wish, place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good, now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is going to come from, the next memory, the next smile, the next wish come true. But, if you believe that it’s right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possiblity of it, to the certainty of it, you just might get the thing you wished for. The world is full of magic, you just have to believe in it. So make your wish, do you have it? Good. Now believe in it with all your heart. "


I cannot rave enough about this show. Seriously, watch it for the writing alone. To me, these monologues are book-worthy quotes. And those are the best kinds of television shows to me, the ones that could be books. If you're a fan of Tree Hill, please ramble on with me in the comments. If you don't watch One Tree Hill, or have never even heard of One Tree Hill...






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Hi.

Hey, everyone. Wow, it's been a month since my last post. I guess I just needed a break from it all for a little bit. The school work was building up, the stress was piling on, and I was just tired of the obligated book reviews. This blog is supposed to be fun for me. If it's not fun, then what's the point? I've been feeling so stressed out lately, and so I just kind of shut down, spending my free time watching One Tree Hill and writing, and still reading here and there, not nearly as much as I have been.

I miss just talking. I miss the posts where I just say what's on my mind, and reading the comments back. Which is partially my own fault, me getting wrapped up in the numbers. I wanted to be a "popular" blog, I wanted to have lots of followers. And with that, I think I lost sight of why I started this blog in the first place.

I started this blog to share a piece of me. It's a place where I can talk openly about books, writing, life, struggles, and things I just can't say to the real world. It's a place to share my hopes and dreams and frustrations. It was such a comfort to know that my words effected even just one person, that one commenter.

So I'm going to revert my blog back to the old days. Where I post because I want to, not because I have to. Where I review the books that blow my mind, the ones that really speak to me and make me feel as though everyone on planet earth needs to read it. Back to the days where I posted samples of my own writing. When I talked about the whims and woes of being a teenager. The complaints and the celebrations.

I realized that I need to stop being something that I'm not.

And start being me again.

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