End of January 2012 Wrap Up

Between meeting John Green and seeing American Idiot, the kick-off of 2012 has been a great one! This month was probably filled with too much awesome...so naturally it just flew right on by.

Life Highlights
Like I've said, meeting John and Hank Green and managing to have a coherent mini-conversation with both of them ranks up there as one of the greatest moments of my life. Being around hundreds of Nerdfighters and getting to talk with them was an experience I'll never forget. Hank sock was hilarious, John continued to say the smartest things, Hank's music was fantastic, The "Yeti" appearance was hilarious. Waiting over two hours for the signatures was so worth it. John Green telling me that he hopes I get published too was one of the greatest "is this real?" moments of my life. Having a conversation with Hank and The Katherine was so great. Those signed items I got are not just mere signatures, they hold so many memories from an event I'll never forget.

This past weekend I saw American Idiot up in Boston. GUYS IT WAS AMAZING. We went for my friends birthday, and it was her first musical experience haven't hearing me ramble on about the amazing-ness of all these different musicals for years, and it was just so much fun. We had great seat, and the cast was phenomenal. I'm convinced that some of the songs were better than the original. Just the harmonies and the story and the underlying message just gah! So good! Highly recommended. 

Also, I got a lead in the spring play. I GOT THE PART I WANTED. Guys, I never get the part I want. Our spring play is two one acts, two totally separate shows. A comedy and a tragedy. I'm in the comedy called 'Dentity Crisis. I play the eccentric mother who thinks she invented cheese and banana bread. I'm so excited! This is the biggest role I've ever gotten... and I just can't wait to get started!

Books
I read nine books this month. Whoa! And the majority of them have been fan-freaking-tastic. Five 5-Star books, one 4-Star, two 3-stars, and one 2-star. The five star books were One Day by David Nicholls,  I Am the Messenger by Markus Zusak, The Fault in our Stars by John Green, Bittersweet by Sarah Ockler, and The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger. The four star book was Catching Jordan by Miranda Keannelly, the three stars were Sign Language by Amy Ackley and Let It Snow by Maureen Johnson, John Green, and Lauren Myracle, and the two star was Beowulf.

My top three books of the month were:
1. The Fault in our Stars (Is it too soon to predict that this will be my favorite book of the year? Probably not)
2. Bittersweet by Sarah Ockler
3. I Am The Messenger by Markus Zusak

Writing
I'm all over the place with writing. I've been editing Perfection, but more importantly I'm nearly 10k into a brand new project that I'm soo excited about. I haven't talked about it much, mostly because it doesn't have a title yet, but I feel like this could be my best first draft writing yet. I'll let you all know more when there is more to know :D 


How was your month? Did you read any amazing books? Do anything noteworthy?
  
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Let It Snow by Maureen Johnson, John Green, and Lauren Myracle

Sparkling white snowdrifts, beautiful presents wrapped in ribbons, and multicolored lights glittering in the night through the falling snow. A Christmas Eve snowstorm transforms one small town into a romantic haven, the kind you see only in movies. Well, kinda. After all, a cold and wet hike from a stranded train through the middle of nowhere would not normally end with a delicious kiss from a charming stranger. And no one would think that a trip to the Waffle House through four feet of snow would lead to love with an old friend. Or that the way back to true love begins with a painfully early morning shift at Starbucks. Thanks to three of today's bestselling teen authors—John Green, Maureen Johnson, and Lauren Myracle—the magic of the holidays shines on these hilarious and charming interconnected tales of love, romance, and breathtaking kisses.

This is such a cute book to curl up with a cup of hot cocoa and read on a cold winter day. The review is going to be structured differently then the norm, because it's three short stories within one. Three different authors. Therefore, three mini-reviews.

Overall, this book was just okay for me. Because it was three short stories, it was all very light-hearted. I wish there was more depth and character development to it. But there were great, off the chart adorable moments that made up for it sometimes.


The Jubilee Express by Maureen Johnson

This story was so cute. Definitely my favorite one of the book. I loved Jubilee, her name, her spunk, her entirely crazy situation. It was all so bizarre yet somehow it worked. I laughed out loud at Maureen's hilarious writing right from the first page. Despite the storyline being totally unbelievable, Maureen has this way of making you believe the unbelievable. And Stuart was just so sweet and adorable and his Mom made me laugh out loud and it was just super duper cute. No deepness what-so-ever, and total fluff. But a good kind of fluff.

4 Stars.


A Cheertastic Christmas Miracle by John Green

You guys all know that John Green is my favorite author ever. But this story just wasn't up to par for me. Again, because he only had like 80 pages to work with, it left out a lot of his usual deepness and added a crazy unbelievable adventure out in a blizzard. But, there were moments that made me laugh and smile and the John Green I knew and loved would come up. He is meant to write novels. Hundreds of pages of brilliance. A short story by him just left something out. I did enjoy his characters and witty remarks. And there was still a great message about how sometimes you don't realize what your looking for is right in front of you the entire time.

4 Stars.


The Patron Saint of Pigs by Lauren Myracle

This one just didn't do it for me. Everything about it just felt forced, like Lauren was trying too hard to keep up with Maureen and John. I don't think she should've been the one responsible for wrapping it up and bringing everyone back together. There were some okay moments here, but overall it was just a disappointment.

2 Stars


Overall: This book was cute, but nothing more. If your looking for a fluffy cute winter romance, this could be the perfect book for you. Personally, I feel like if I read it at another point in time I would've liked it better. But after coming off from The Fault in our Stars and Bittersweet, this book didn't have any emotional depth, which is what I need it a book. Nonetheless, it was more enjoyable than not.






No Day But Today



Today I thought I'd talk about inspiration through music. In this case, not just music, but musicals. And one musical in particular. RENT.

RENT is definitely not your typical musical. It tells the story of a group of impoverished young artists and musicians struggling to survive and create in New York's Lower East Side in the thriving days of Bohemian Alphabet City, under the shadow of HIV/AIDS.

This show is so inspiring to me in so many ways. I watched the movie for the first time over two-years ago and immediately fell in love. The music is so poignant, the story so touching. It still brings me to tears every time I watch it. Which is constantly. RENT is just one of those shows that makes you appreciate life, and tells you to do what you want and make every moment count.

The lyrics to the songs in this show really speak to me. There's everything from full-out rock, to a tango, to ballads, to gospel.

"Seasons of Love"
       In, 525,600 minutes, how do you measure a year in the life?
                                                                            Measure your life in love.

"Rent"
    How do you document real life when real life's getting more like fiction each day?
 

"Another Day"
   There's only us. There's only this.
   Forget regret. Or life is yours to miss.
   No other road, no other way.
   No day but today.

"Halloween"
   Why am I the witness. And when I capture it on film, does it mean that it's the end and I'm alone?

"What You Own"
   When you're living in America, at the end of the millennium, you're what you own.

"La Vie Bohem"
   To being an us for once. Instead of a them. La vie bohem.

Just a few examples of some of my favorite lyrics ever--some of my favorite quotes ever.

What's even more inspiring than the show itself is the story behind the musical.

Jonathan Larson, who wrote RENT, had this knowing that he was going to do something and it was going to be big. He was an unsuccessful playwright in New York City, living in a fifth floor walk-up on the Lower East Side. Money was always an issue, because he worked as little as possible so he could be home writing.

Then RENT happened. Larson literally worked on it for years. Family and friends supported him through everything. The right people caught notice of the show, and suddenly they wanted to do a full out production. After years of hard work, Jonathan Larson's wishes were finally all coming true. He picked out the (amazing) cast, tweaked and fine-tuned the show. Everything was finally happening.

Jonathan Larson died of an aoritic aneurysm the night before the show's opening night. At age 35.

It's such a tragedy, that this man produced such an amazing testimony to life, and he never got to see it make it big. But if anything, it proved how precious life is. And the story is so inspiring, because in the end, he lived such a happy life. Because he was always doing what he loved. He never gave up on his dreams.

So, please never give up on your dreams. You never know what day will be your last.



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My 200th Blog Post

Two hundred posts later, and this blog is becoming stronger than ever. Thank you so much to everyone who follows my blog and reads regularly. It means the world to me that people actually care about what I have to say. With this milestone, I've decided to move on to new and exciting things. Including video blogging.

Starting today, I'm going to use that good old YouTube account and begin vlogging on a regular basis. I'm going to try to do a video a week, and once summer comes maybe I'll to more.

I'd love if you could subscribe to my channel if you enjoy my videos. :)





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Catching Jordan by Miranda Kenneally

What girl doesn't want to be surrounded by gorgeous jocks day in and day out? Jordan Woods isn't just surrounded by hot guys, though - she leads them as the captain and quarterback on her high school football team. They all see her as one of the guys, and that's just fine. As long as she gets her athletic scholarship to a powerhouse university. But now there's a new guy in town who threatens her starring position on the team... and has her suddenly wishing to be seen as more than just a teammate.

Okay, little secret about me? Total closet football fan. Like I said in my last post, I don't think that they should be paid so much, but I do appreciate it mentally and physically. And my dad is a huge Patriot's fan, and I'm the only one who will listen to him ramble about them...so eventually it started making sense. So, the point being that I was extremely excited to read Catching Jordan. I love books that defy typical gender roles. So when I heard that there's a book about a football team where the Captain and Starting QB is a girl... I was like hell yes!

Jordan was such a great main character. If she was a real person, she'd be someone I'd definitely look up to. She's so determined, so dedicated to football and following her dreams. I loved her entire personality. What a good captain she was, her relationship with the team, how she didn't take any shit. She continued to play football, despite the fact that her father didn't support it. And for a girl to be able to hold her own on a football field with a bunch of 200+ pound guys is pretty amazing. But I also love how stupid she was in some other ways. Like boys and how she's afraid she doesn't know how to kiss. 

I loved the entire dynamic of the football team. And how they totally had Jordan's back. JJ was the bomb. It's just, while I loved the way they treated Jordan... I can't help but think that it couldn't have always been that way, you know? Like, I wish I got to know some of the back story about how Jordan made the team, and the initial issues. Because it's kind of unrealistic that boys would just be automatically OK with playing with a girl.

Concerning the two main boys, Ty and Henry, my feelings for them totally flip-flopped as the book progressed. Which has never really happened.  Like, I loved Ty at first. First of all, he was described as Chace freaking Crawford's twin. And he was so nice and sweet to Jordan, and frankly just hot. But I mean, he had his flaws, and they kept becoming more and more apparent as the book progressed. Then there's Henry, Jordan's best friend who has loved her forever though Jordan's been completely oblivious. To me, Henry was just OK in the beginning. He bothered me at times (because he's a total man-whore), but I didn't hate him. And then by the end I was in love with him with Jordan.

And that's the thing about this book. I WAS Jordan. I felt how she felt. Her emotions became my emotions.

I did have some minor issues with the writing, nothing distracting. Sometimes the dialogue was spot-on, and then other times it'd be like, would they really say that? I did like the random poems dispersed throughout the novel. They added an extra something.

Overall, Catching Jordan was a great read that I'd totally recommend. It's about following your dreams and not caring about what other people think, and also following your heart. It's about making mistakes and owning up to those mistakes. And ultimately finding yourself. I think every teenager will be able to relate to this book. 





Reading Is Cool Too

Going to John Green's event for The Fault in our Stars really got me thinking. It was such an amazing, surreal experience, being surrounded by so many people who all share the same love of reading. I've never gotten that anywhere else. It was easy to make conversation with just about anyone. The people waiting in line behind us outside, people sitting all around us in the auditorium, people in the signing line. We fan-girled over John Green and gasped over someone that hasn't read The Hunger Games. And while I'll probably never see these people or talk to them again, it was an experience that I will never forget. Being around so many people that you don't have to explain to, people who just get it.

After the event, my family asked all about it. I was totally fangirling, describing conversations and everything, but I knew that they didn't get it. Laughing over my excitement, like oh aren't you such a cute little nerd. My dad even said jokingly, "I've never seen someone so excited about meeting an author. Girls your age are supposed to be like this over rock stars." I showed all of my signed stuff with such enthusiasm, and no one really cared.

If I got say, Tom Brady's autograph or Lil Wayne's, I'd be the shit.

I cannot understand for the life of me why our culture glorifies athletes and celebrities. What do they do? Football players get paid millions of dollars for being able to throw/catch a ball. (Disclaimer: I respect football and think it's a fascinating sport both physically and mentally. I just don't think people should be paid so much to play it.) Reality TV stars are paid so everyone has the luxury of seeing their over-dramatized life on television. I watch shows like Jersey Shore and Keeping up with the Kardashian's and I'm disgusted, because it's like what are those people famous for?

So of course those are the show's that everyone else obsesses over.

And then there are writers. People who are under the radar, famous within there own circle of loyal readers. Authors do something. They put their work out there, and affect their readers. There's purpose within novels. Lessons about humanity. Author's dig deep, using words to discover the roots of society. We write to make sense of the world around us, as well as help other people make sense of it all along the way.

For me, I cannot imagine a world without books. I need them like I need oxygen. The publishing world is such an amazing community, one that I want to be a part of one day. My books are my friends. I've already made so many friends through writing.

I feel like the book world in general is extremely underrated. I look to my favorite authors with so much more admiration than I do celebrities. How different is reading a book than watching TV? Those shows just don't happen on their own. There are brilliant writers behind all of them. My favorite television writer is Shonda Rhimes, the brain behind shows such as Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice. All TV takes words and makes them visual. People won't read, because reading takes too much effort. They can't just sit down for a few hours and visualize this whole world for them. Instead, they sit in front of a television and let all the imagining be done for them.

So yes. I love books. I love how an entire story is bound between such a small space. I love meeting new characters and learning there stories. Having my heart broken again and again. Falling in love again and again.

I just wish more people could understand that feeling. Or at least try to.


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Bittersweet by Sarah Ockler

Once upon a time, Hudson knew exactly what her future looked like. Then a betrayal changed her life, and knocked her dreams to the ground. Now she’s a girl who doesn’t believe in second chances… a girl who stays under the radar by baking cupcakes at her mom’s diner and obsessing over what might have been.

So when things start looking up and she has another shot at her dreams, Hudson is equal parts hopeful and terrified. Of course, this is also the moment a cute, sweet guy walks into her life…and starts serving up some seriously mixed signals. She’s got a lot on her plate, and for a girl who’s been burned before, risking it all is easier said than done.

It’s time for Hudson to ask herself what she really wants, and how much she’s willing to sacrifice to get it. Because in a place where opportunities are fleeting, she knows this chance may very well be her last….

Sarah Ockler, you have done it again *applauds*

I've been so excited to read Bittersweet since I've heard about. I mean, you get summer romances all the time. But a winter romance? Filled with hot cocoa, figure skating, and hockey boys? Um, yes. This book did not disappoint! And, the cover is even prettier in person. It has this sparkly effect. 

The depth and sincerity that comes along with Ockler's beautiful prose never ceases to amaze me. Her words connect with the reader so well. Whenever I read her writing, it always seems as though she's speaking directly to me. There were moments in this book where I was laughing out loud, and just so many "aw" moments. The writing really resonates with you, and is just so refreshing. Also, can I just say that the chapter tittles were fantastic, as well as the cupcake descriptions at the beginning of each chapter.

So, plot wise and character wise, I think this must be my favorite Ockler story yet. It's just so stinking cute. The cupcakes. The skate love. The hockey boys. But the thing is... this book was so much more than just a cute story. It was about Hudson finding herself and finally figuring out what she wants. It's a story about family struggles and personal struggles, making mistakes and just growing up. I think every teen will be able to relate to this story in some way. I absolutely loved the figure skating element. If there's one thing I wish I could do, it's be able to skate well. And the hockey parallel was a nice change up. There's plenty of stories out there with the standard quarterback main character. But a hockey captain? That's hot.

Time to ramble and gush about the characters. I loved Hudson. I loved how totally not-perfect and realistic she was. Friend mistakes? Been there. Wanting to make everyone happy, until eventually you crack and just want do something for yourself? Done that. Hudson's characteristics embodied the typical teenager. And yes, sometimes I wanted to smack her, and tell her to stop being so stupid. But then there were other times when I could see myself being best friends with someone like her. And I loved her relationship with her eight-year-old brother, Bug. He was so adorable, in that 'why are you so intelligent?' way. Their scenes together always made me smile.

I loved Josh. So much. He was just so sweet. And totally swoon worthy. His interactions with Hudson were so adorable. And Dani was such a great best friend. Not to mention hilarious. Her lines had me laughing out loud. I didn't like Will at all. There was something about him that just bothered me. Maybe the fact that whenever Hudson was with him, I was like WHY AREN'T YOU WITH JOSH. (Yeah, I really loved Josh.) The entire hockey team and their dynamic was hysterical. 

So I know this isn't really a review, but I kind of loved everything about this book. No complaints. It's a fun winter read, while still having depth and emotional insight to it. I am such a Sarah Ockler fan. You just read her books and are like OMG THIS. Another fabulous read by Ockler, Bittersweet is probably my favorite book by her yet. I can't wait to see what she comes up with next. 

On a final note, my favorite cupcake quote.
"No One Wants to Kiss a Girl Who Smells Like Bacon, So I Might as Well Get Fat Cupcakes"




 

In My Mailbox

In My Mailbox is a weekly meme held by The Story Siren.

I don't typically do IMM, but this week I had a box of box come literally in my mail, so I wanted to share. I have such a pile building up. Which of course isn't a bad thing, to always have something new to read... :D

Here's what I got!
From ze Mailbox...

Bittersweet by Sarah Ockler (currently halfway through and LOVING it)

13 Reasons Why (Already read it, but since it's in paperback, figured it was about time to own it)

Catching Jordan by Miranda Kenneally

Let It Snow by John Green, Maureen Johnson, and Lauren Myracle




Girl at Sea by Maureen Johnson

Half-Blood by Jennifer L. Armentrout

Obsidian by Jennifer L. Armentrout (Read this on Netgalley, needed to have it)

The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald

Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger



To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee (LOVE this book)

Brave New World by Aldous Huxley


From le Library...

Bitter End by Jennifer Brown



White Cat by Holly Black


For le Kindle...

A Blue So Dark by Holly Schindler
Ruined Trilogy by Simone Elkeles 

What's in your mailbox?


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The Fault in our Stars by John Green

Diagnosed with Stage IV thyroid cancer at 12, Hazel was prepared to die until, at 14, a medical miracle shrunk the tumours in her lungs... for now.

Two years post-miracle, sixteen-year-old Hazel is post-everything else, too post-high school, post-friends and post-normalcy. And even though she could live for a long time (whatever that means), Hazel lives tethered to an oxygen tank, the tumours tenuously kept at bay with a constant chemical assault.

Enter Augustus Waters. A match made at cancer kid support group, Augustus is gorgeous, in remission, and shockingly to her, interested in Hazel. Being with Augustus is both an unexpected destination and a long-needed journey, pushing Hazel to re-examine how sickness and health, life and death, will define her and the legacy that everyone leaves behind.


Oh my God. This book is hands down one of the best books I have ever read, and probably will ever read. I sat down this morning, and did not get up until I finished. In that time, I had laughed more than I had ever laughed while reading a book, and cried more than I have ever cried. This book was truly a roller coaster of emotions, and I'm seriously sitting here tearing up again while writing the review. I had to pause for a moment, not able to write this immediately upon finishing the novel because it's almost like how can I possibly write a review that will do this book justice?

Of course everything I write is going to be spoiler free, but if you have not read the book, I totally recommend going into it with a fresh head and not reading any reviews, even the spoiler-free ones. I won't even tell my sister what happened, because though she is 13, I anticipate that she'll be reading this in the next year or two, and I still don't want to spoil it for her.

John. Oh John. You are just so GOOD. Your writing is always smart and witty and deep and powerful, so of course I expected no less for The Fault in our Stars. You pour so much meaning into every name, every sentence, every word. It was impossible for me to put this book down, I couldn't have even if I absolutely had to. You have such a way with words, it never ceases to amaze me.

These characters were fantastic. They were never played off or perceived as perfect, and that's what made this book what it was. Hazel's voice was so honest, I felt like I knew her. Everything was just so incredibly real about this book and this story. I was so invested in these character's and their story, and I truly cared about them with the bottom of my heart.

I'm seriously still mind blown by this book. There are very few life-changing books out there, but The Fault in our Stars changed the way that I view everything. That in itself is such a rarity. A book like this is going to be hard to top, but with John Green, anything is possible. His books are truly modern classics, and he will forever be one of my literary heroes. This is one of those books that I'll be thinking about for days. Such beautiful, powerful, hilarious but heartbreaking novel, that will really change your perception of life.

Amazing. Breathtaking. Smart. Witty. Heartbreaking.

I would give this book 10 stars if I could. In a heartbeat.





I Made John Green Laugh. Twice

I can die happily.

No, but seriously. What an amazing kick off event those Green brothers put together. I'm still like. Is this real life, did this actually happen? Yes. It did. And I have photographic evidence.


 John opened up with a reading.

 Hank played epic music.

 Hank as "The Yeti"

Me in front of the van of AWESOME. 


Okay, so the show alone was amazing.
There was readings and music and Q&As, and Hank sock even opened it up.
It's such an amazing experience, being around hundreds of Nerdfighters.
At my school, it's only me and my best friend.
So it was so nice being around people that you don't have to explain it all to.
We had the greatest conversations with random people sitting around us during the show and waiting in line.

The wait to meet them was very long.
But, oh so worth it.

Here's the play-by-play.

*Walk up to John*
John: "You're Marisa" (He personalized all of our books, which was so nice, considering how many people were there. So they had us spell our names on sticky notes to make things go faster.)

Me: Yes. Thank you so much for coming.

John: No, thank YOU

Me: I literally did Happy Dance X10,000 when I realized you were coming here

John: -insert laugh-

Me: But I kinda forgot that my computer was on my lap...so yeah that was interesting... (true story)

John: -insert more laughter-

Me: But seriously, I write too, and I only hope that I can write books like yours one day.


John: I do too. (this was the moment where I was like OMG. And almost teared up.)


And then he was all "Just keep writing" and I was like "I will." and I thanked him again and moved down the line to Hank.

Funny story, yesterday me & my Nerdfighter friend actually made our biology class watch Hank Green's video on blood. So I told him that. He asked what my teacher thought, and I was like. "She liked it...though she didn't really get the whole "Your Pants" thing." That made him and The Katherine laugh.

John Green signed and personalized Looking for Alaska, An Abundance of Katherine's, and Paper Towns for me as well. Hank singed and hanklerfished the CDs I bought. And The Katherine also signed Hank's CD. And they all signed the poster that we got for coming.

Also they had everyone there sign a copy of TFIOS. They're doing this at all their tour stops. Who does this? Besides such awesome people.


It was such an amazing day. One that I will never forget.

AND. I just finished The Fault in our Stars an hour ago.... and OMG. I will try to write a coherent, spoiler free review at some point. Just holy amounts of laughing and sobbing....

DFTBA,
Best Wishes.


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Being a Teenager

...is hard.

Everyone is so judgmental. If you don't look or act a certain way, people don't like you. If you have any ounce of uniqueness in you, someone will find a way to put you down. If you're too loud, you're annoying. If you're quiet, you're a snob.

In high school, you can never win.

The thing I hate most? No one has a mind of their own. These are the years that we're supposed to discover who we are as people, and begin to figure out who we want to become. But if you openly express interest for anything that's not cool...you're shunned. The only people who know that I write are my closest friends. In middle school, I used to get made fun of for reading on the bus. The majority of my school is so incredibly one-dimensional, it's pathetic.


It's so true. And something I've definitely learned. I hate being around people that I used to consider "friends". People who go through friends like their nothing. How can two people be friends for so long, and then it's just thrown away. No fights, no big blowouts. You just act as though you were never friends in the first place. You forget about all the Friday Night sleepovers and guitar hero jam sessions. That failed attempt at making cookies back in sixth grade. It's just like, poof. Gone. At this point, I want to know why. Why do you act like you hate me? What did I do, other than be your friend? We'll never be friends again, I knew this years ago. It's just so hard for me to comprehend such extremes.

Um, how about every morning? Even though my closet is overflowing, I always feel like there's nothing to wear. I think every teenage has that moment, when you're rushing to get dressed and NOTHING looks good on you. And you're like "Shit! But I have to go!" so you just end up throwing on jeans and a sweatshirt. I will NEVER wear sweatpants, or pajama bottoms to school. I just...can't bring myself to do that.

I absolutely love my group of friends. I was never one to be a part of a large group, who was constantly doing stuff together. I'm more of a small-group of friends kind of person. I love how my lunch table can go from these deep, intelligent discussions about religion/life to pole dancing in a matter of seconds (Don't ask...) One of my best friends is just as much of a book nerd as I am, so I have someone to constantly geek out with. My other best friend is music-obsessed and we have pretty much the same taste, so that calls for frequent jam sessions. We all balance each other out so well. I love it.

I'm tired all the time. You're tired all the time. If you're not yawning on a regular basis, you're not a teenager. Between school and homework and dance and student council and just LIFE, by the end of the day I just collapse onto my bed. There is so much pressure put on teens today, and I think way to much is expected out of us. We need to do well in school, and do extracurriculars, have jobs, and volunteer. But what about us? I feel like I'm always on 20% battery.

Totally true. Sometimes I'm just so incredibly AWKWARD. I'm that person who always thinks of a good comeback after the fact. I wish I was able to come up with things off the top of my head.

 THIS. Every time I see these family friends of mine, the first thing they ask is whether I have a boyfriend. And it's so awkward. Because it's not like I don't want a boyfriend, per se. It's just that there's no one I want to date. Big difference. And with my extended family (aunts, uncles, etc) if I ever mention a guy that I'm friends with, their eyebrows lift up, as though they automatically assume that just because I talk to someone of the opposite sex I have a boyfriend or want said person to be my boyfriend. Talk about one dimensional.

This is the one truth of it all. Don't waste your teenage years surrounded by people who like causing problems. My friends and I never fight. No drama is definitely the way to go. I see/hear about fights all the time...and I'm like why are you even friends then? Surround yourself with positive influences. Make memories that when you look back you'll be proud of.

One thing I'm really working on is being more confident in myself. Confident in my appearance, confident in my writing, confident in my dancing. I'm extremely passive, the person who will just let things go. I absolutely hate confrontation, so I let things slide. I don't want to do that anymore.

This is what happens when I start thinking too much.

Oh, and because this amuses me xD



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