Everyone is so judgmental. If you don't look or act a certain way, people don't like you. If you have any ounce of uniqueness in you, someone will find a way to put you down. If you're too loud, you're annoying. If you're quiet, you're a snob.
In high school, you can never win.
The thing I hate most? No one has a mind of their own. These are the years that we're supposed to discover who we are as people, and begin to figure out who we want to become. But if you openly express interest for anything that's not cool...you're shunned. The only people who know that I write are my closest friends. In middle school, I used to get made fun of for reading on the bus. The majority of my school is so incredibly one-dimensional, it's pathetic.
It's so true. And something I've definitely learned. I hate being around people that I used to consider "friends". People who go through friends like their nothing. How can two people be friends for so long, and then it's just thrown away. No fights, no big blowouts. You just act as though you were never friends in the first place. You forget about all the Friday Night sleepovers and guitar hero jam sessions. That failed attempt at making cookies back in sixth grade. It's just like, poof. Gone. At this point, I want to know why. Why do you act like you hate me? What did I do, other than be your friend? We'll never be friends again, I knew this years ago. It's just so hard for me to comprehend such extremes.
I absolutely love my group of friends. I was never one to be a part of a large group, who was constantly doing stuff together. I'm more of a small-group of friends kind of person. I love how my lunch table can go from these deep, intelligent discussions about religion/life to pole dancing in a matter of seconds (Don't ask...) One of my best friends is just as much of a book nerd as I am, so I have someone to constantly geek out with. My other best friend is music-obsessed and we have pretty much the same taste, so that calls for frequent jam sessions. We all balance each other out so well. I love it.
One thing I'm really working on is being more confident in myself. Confident in my appearance, confident in my writing, confident in my dancing. I'm extremely passive, the person who will just let things go. I absolutely hate confrontation, so I let things slide. I don't want to do that anymore.
This is what happens when I start thinking too much.
Oh, and because this amuses me xD